If we are denying aspects of ourselves, our needs, our desires... we are essentially creating lack within our lives.
And that will inevitably hold us back.
It WILL catch up to us in an undeniable way at some point.
This is how we wind up being the ones in our own way.
We are the ones keeping ourselves from what we really want...
because we compartmentalize, hide, deny, turn a blind eye, etc.
And that's ok. It's a human thing to do.
But we can also do better for ourselves at any time.
In this kind of scenario of compartmentalizing like I'm describing, there is some area of your life or well-being that is getting drained, depleted, rejected, harmed, stifled...
aka some aspect of YOU that isn't being taken care of, honored, or nurtured.
And you can certainly go along like that for quite some time...
until one day, you just simply can't anymore.
One day, you will be confronted with the repercussions of it.
And this is what we call WAKING UP.
Something will finally get your attention so strongly that you can't look away.
And it may hurt.
There may be emotional pain or shock.
Something may happen with your health.
Something may stop you in you fucking tracks in a way that you could never go back to how things were.
And now, you're READY for a change! Hallelujah!
The tables have turned, and things are pointing in a liberating direction for you.
I'm done with this!
This isn't what I want!
This isn't working!
I deserve better!
...or something like that.
It's ok to be "asleep" to what's really going on.
We only know when we know... and once we DO know, we can't UN-KNOW it!
So, let's keep going...
What happens after you wake up to the fact that compartmentalizing is harming your progress, mental health, success, well-being?
For me in the example I've been referring to about my own life over the last year...
I wound up having to face just about the deepest fear(s) I had.
I was compartmentalizing, settling, going along with things, making excuses, etc., because it was a subconscious way for me to avoid making changes that would FORCE me to confront core fears.
Ultimately, I just wanted to feel safe.
But in wanting to "feel" safe, I unintentionally was keeping myself and my life compartmentalized, limited, and deprived. This is what we'd call a "block."
(To be clear, this wasn't obvious to me or to any outsider... it was something deeper taking place)
These kinds of subconscious behaviors BLOCK the flow MEANT for you...
because you aren't actually available to it...
because you aren't doing or being (entirely) what you want.
... because you're afraid.
... because you are in doubt.
... because you're lacking in trust.
So, hi! I'm on the other side of this now.
I faced the f out of those fears.
And it was really scary.
I felt like there was no ground for a while.
I felt raw and vulnerable and unsafe. I imagined worst case scenarios.
And then, steadily, I remembered that I am worthy of the very best life (thanks, Louise Hay).
I remembered my epic power to create what I want.
I remembered that it's all here for me.
I remembered and then began feeling DEEPLY that "it's all rigged in your favor," and best case outcomes are mine to dream up and experience.
Our fear will hold us back.
It will block us from the Divine supply.
It has us believe bogus bullshit about lack, limitations, and worst case scenarios.
But it's all a lie. It's a mirage.
You are your hero. It's up to you to save you.
It's up to you to believe in what good could be possible for you.
And as always, at the very bottom of it all, it's about you being willing to go all in on everything you are and everything you want.
All my love to you! I believe in you.
Dr. Cailin O'Hara is a passionate intuitive healer, teacher, coach, and forever student of life here to translate her experiences into hope, wisdom and light.